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[HighPoly]

Guys...

I'm not a psychopath, but I have bipolar disorder...
I'm using my medicines and therapy...
but sometimes, not everyday, not every week or month...
Thanks GOD, but sometimes, I think about suicide...
And sometimes I got me thinking in Mass Shooting...

I can't go on, because I love my parents and they don't deserve to cry and pay for my sins...
I have some dreams, some of them I shared with you... These dreams make me happier...
PLEASE, don't I'm a bad person... Don't be scared... Don't make me feel even more exotic than I really am...

I think I need peace, and maybe sex...
I don't really know if all those bad feelings and thoughts, are based on reality or only a disorder pathology...
I have a pretty good family, and so much love...

I'm venting feelings now... Sorry...
Everytime I speak about it, I feel so much better, so lighter...

I don't think I'm that kind will choose the worst decision!
I have a lot to lose... But it seems like, sometimes I lose my mind...

 

[Fenix34]

 

[YCoCg]

And sometimes I got me thinking in Mass Shooting...

....Yeah if you're moving to America MAYBE don't mention this to immigration?

 

[tommycronin]

 

[HighPoly]

ok, leave this thread alone...

forget it

 

[IFireflyl]

If you're having suicidal thoughts or thoughts of hurting other people, you need clinical help. If you're having both of these kinds of thoughts, you need clinical help as quickly as humanly possible. As in, you need to drop everything you're doing and find a therapist, call a hotline, and anything else you can think of. Also, you should tell the people you love about this, not strangers on the internet. This is way too heavy for NeoGAF.

 

[balls of snow]

 

[CGNoire]

Neogaf isnt equippes to help you man. You need to contact a professional ASAP. And for the love of god talk to your family and loved ones about what you have been thinking. BEST WISHES.