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Or am I already crazy?

GAF throw me a bone here. Probably the weirdest first thread ever maybe? I'm having a hard time in life right now. I wanna go back to school but still not sure for what. Got a great girlfriend but at the same time she makes me question a lot of things.

Should I act in public how I wanna act, or according to what is considered normal? Politeness, being aware of who is around me...no idea how to act. Some tell me be myself, and I can't tell if being myself...well...is completely true to myself.

I've never considered suicide, but I look at the life ahead of me and wonder, how the hell do I manage?(Not gonna do it. I enjoy life a lot.) How do I live up to having an older brother who managed to graduate a 4 year degree in college in 3, when I've been out of high school for almost 3 and I'm not even close to halfway finished? A sister who already has her masters degree, and that same older brother already made it to law school?

Why am I so worried about school when by the time I get back, I'll just work diligently for a month or two and then not care?

Why do the things I think about seem to be normal to me but not others? Why the hell can't I make better friends? All the people I talk to aren't really good friends, and I've been told to surround myself with people who "set the bar" higher.

What is going on in my head right now...GAF?
 
Taco_Human said:
Or am I already crazy?

GAF throw me a bone here. Probably the weirdest first thread ever maybe? I'm having a hard time in life right now. I wanna go back to school but still not sure for what. Got a great girlfriend but at the same time she makes me question a lot of things.

Should I act in public how I wanna act, or according to what is considered normal? Politeness, being aware of who is around me...no idea how to act. Some tell me be myself, and I can't tell if being myself...well...is completely true to myself.

I've never considered suicide, but I look at the life ahead of me and wonder, how the hell do I manage?(Not gonna do it. I enjoy life a lot.) How do I live up to having an older brother who managed to graduate a 4 year degree in college in 3, when I've been out of high school for almost 3 and I'm not even close to halfway finished? A sister who already has her masters degree, and that same older brother already made it to law school?

Why am I so worried about school when by the time I get back, I'll just work diligently for a month or two and then not care?

Why do the things I think about seem to be normal to me but not others? Why the hell can't I make better friends? All the people I talk to aren't really good friends, and I've been told to surround myself with people who "set the bar" higher.

What is going on in my head right now...GAF?
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Why the fuck would you even bring that up. Be yourself, the whole point of college is to figure out what you want to do in life. Get some direction, meet great friends with common interests at college.
 
Taco_Human said:
Or am I already crazy?

GAF throw me a bone here. Probably the weirdest first thread ever maybe? I'm having a hard time in life right now. I wanna go back to school but still not sure for what. Got a great girlfriend but at the same time she makes me question a lot of things.

Should I act in public how I wanna act, or according to what is considered normal? Politeness, being aware of who is around me...no idea how to act. Some tell me be myself, and I can't tell if being myself...well...is completely true to myself.

I've never considered suicide, but I look at the life ahead of me and wonder, how the hell do I manage?(Not gonna do it. I enjoy life a lot.) How do I live up to having an older brother who managed to graduate a 4 year degree in college in 3, when I've been out of high school for almost 3 and I'm not even close to halfway finished? A sister who already has her masters degree, and that same older brother already made it to law school?

Why am I so worried about school when by the time I get back, I'll just work diligently for a month or two and then not care?

Why do the things I think about seem to be normal to me but not others? Why the hell can't I make better friends? All the people I talk to aren't really good friends, and I've been told to surround myself with people who "set the bar" higher.

What is going on in my head right now...GAF?
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This is pretty much everybody at one point in their life or another. Just...do something that keeps food on your plate...do some other shit that makes you laugh occasionally....and keep doing that shit.
 
Have you ever been afraid of something that can't possibly exist? What about seen it? Heard it? Do you need medication to not experience these sights, sounds or thoughts?

:(
 
sounds familiar

but I feel as though I've already died, maybe about year or two ago, less and less people talk to me, and I just get ignored most of the time....

waited like 20 minutes to get ice cream today when about 12 people got there ice cream ahead of me.... when I was in line first...

when I enter a room people go silent for a moment...

dogs and cats bark or hiss at me and the owner never acknowledges me...... weird...

stuff like that

things have been fucking weird since me and a friend decided to visit an abandoned insane asylum about 2 years back....

what the fuck is this shit ?
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jorgeton said:
+1 to everything that's been said. Don't worry about anyone else, just make yourself happy. Follow your bliss.
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I got some parents that are getting older....younger kids that I worry about too...plus myself....its hard not to think about everyone else.
 
First of all, everyone goes through college at their own pace. Don't beat yourself up because you have two siblings that are good at school. It's nothing to get yourself worked up over, because if you had been born a house over you could be the first one in your family ever going to anything past high school, or your brother could be going in his 6th year or something. It's all relative man.

We all feel certain social niceties, the minutia of everyday life are somewhat strange at times. Why are so many of us so afraid to just talk to someone we don't know? Why do we nod our head's at someone we'll never see again in our lives? It's all just little stuff that goes through your head once in a while. There's no real wrong or right answers. It's just how stuff is. I know, I know, that's not exactly profound, or deep, or meaningful, but it's all I got.

As for friends. Making friends isn't easy, especially when thrown into an alien, or just awkward situation. Going to college, I commute, and haven't really met a single person up there. I hang out with my friends from the past a bit, but it's not the same. For the average person who goes to school, works, and goes home, there's not really many opportunities to make friends, especially none that feel natural, and who wants to try and force a friendship?

All I can say is hang in there. I'm glad you're not even considering doing anything rash, because a lot of the time stuff like this is just growing pains. Just try and talk to more people. I know it's weird at first for a lot of people, but you never know what can happen. You may not make friendships, but you can't lose anything. And always remember that there are thousands in your spot, and likely hundreds like that just on your campus alone. Just give it some time though, it will all work out.
 
Taco_Human said:
I got some parents that are getting older....younger kids that I worry about too...plus myself....its hard not to think about everyone else.
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Try. You can only help someone else so much. Put yourself first. The better you are, the more you can take care of someone else. Life is short so try and be happy.
 
Taco_Human said:
Should I act in public how I wanna act, or according to what is considered normal? Politeness, being aware of who is around me...no idea how to act. Some tell me be myself, and I can't tell if being myself...well...is completely true to myself.

Why do the things I think about seem to be normal to me but not others?
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So long as you're not harming yourself or others, don't worry about being "normal." It's such a waste of time questioning your own thoughts just because you're worried other people don't have them. Just imagine you're a visionary! A crazy, crazy visionary.
 
I'm most sane when I don't try to justify my sanity. Think less about how you do things, and more about the things you are going to do. Set short term goals, that you can take action on. Don't make too many goals either. If you want to go back to school, then look at what some schools have to offer, then the next day think things over, and the next fill out applications. Small steps are the key to success, and its only when we see people that have taken many small steps that we begin to compare ourselves to the giant leap that never happened.
 
Whatever you do, hold on to that great girlfriend. She's the only thing between you and insanity. She's the only one that can make your life make sense.

Best advice I can give you.
 
Full blown crazies don't know they're crazy so you may be going crazy and if one day you decide you're suddenly sane you may have finally crossed over into crazytown.

Make sense?
 
jaxword said:
Here's a psychological test, what do you see in this image?
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I saw a shark wearing a mask coming out of an explosion holding a samurai sword.

Edit: This is my first post of GAF. After years of lurking, this is where I decided to make my mark. Hmm.
 
You're not crazy, maybe a tad lazy, or you don't know where you're heading in life. Finish up your degree, find a publisher and write a book.

Listen, to self-actualize you shouldn't give a fuck what others think, if you're a boss, you're a boss. If you're an otaku, you're an otaku. If you're a weebo, you're a weebo. If you're a cocky, stuck-up, asshole with a penchant for studying and an undying love for ladies, then you're me.

Everybody is different, embrace your individuality.

If the girl is preventing you from being yourself, have a talk with her, and if she doesn't want to compromise, say goodbye and find one who will.

You make friends if you feel that you were born to be blood-brothers, friends aren't superfluous socialites.

There is a difference between using people and befriending people.

Is your significant other clouding your train of thought with materialistic protocol?
 
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